using my gifts

i got a digital camera this christmas (because i asked for one). now i just have to use it. it sounds easy enough.

how sleep affects my blog

it's usually at night - when i'm sitting on my sofa or laying in my bed - that i think about my life. and i have this inner monologue go on that i say i'm going to put into my next blog post. and then i go to sleep. and the next morning i think about what i was thinking about the night before, and decide that i shouldn't put those words to paper. and that's why i don't have much to say on my blog. the hours of sleep are similar to 'counting to 10 before saying something'.

it's a new year

let's see what it brings.

i have no answers

some questions beg to be answered, and others dare you to try.
how do people find love? or happiness? or each other?

hello future

for the time being (and maybe forseeable future) i announce that i concede to the fairer sex. you know something i don't, and whatever it is you know is keeping the two of us apart. so i will begin a time of searching, reflection, introspection, reevaluation, and change. what will i do, how long will it take, and will it work? those are the first three questions that immediately come to mind.

what the heck, tuesday, why you treat me like this?

i have a headache. behind my left eye. is that a migrane, or just a headache behind my left eye? can you get a migrane once or twice? whatever. i took something for it, so hopefully it goes away soon.

and then there's my heart. that bastard of emotion. it's acting up again.

so eff you, tuesday. hurry up and give way to wednesday!

here you go

lately i've been into giving gifts, and i'm not sure why. whether it's presents, knick-knacks, cards, food or drinks, etc. i'm already buying birthday and christmas presents for people, and am searching for things that are a good fit to peoples personalities/wants.
so i'm trying to figure out the reason(s) behind this. so far all that i have is that i haven't been good at expressing verbally my appreciation of people (friends, family, co-workers, ...), or my feelings for them, so i'm trying to do it through gifts. this may not be accurate, true, or successful, but so far it's the only reason i have for my new found desire to buy things for people.
all i know for sure is that it's not because of my surplus of funds.

what to talk about

many of my friends have commented on the 'darkness' of some of my blog posts. and that's how i feel now. but i guess i'll keep it all inside.

rainbows, butterflys, unicorns, spring days, skipping, laughing, bright colors, and other happy things.

work work work

thankfully it doesn't happen too often, but it looks like i am working late tonight. not too late, but it will be 7pm most likely. i just hope that it will mean tomorrow will go smoothly. go team!

weekend recap

friday night was 'green eggs & the met', which showed off a lot of dr. seuss' works, and had 3-4 bands playing. i loved it, thought it went well, and look forward to the next event they have.
saturday night was a halloween costume party at brians. it turned out well, with lots of people dressing up. i think i ended up being most happy with my drinking mug and all the attention 'senior skull' got (although i did bring him up quite a bit).
and sunday was a lot of laying around watching football and baseball.
now back to work.

wtf

one minute, i have the world figured out. the next, i'm left scratching my head. going from low to high to low takes a lot out of a person. i long for simplicity...and peace...and normalcy. maybe i'm almost there. but right now, at this minute, it feels like a long way away.

50 questions

i haven't posted anything in awhile, and i saw that sara had this on her blog today. so i am presuming that i have permission from her to use these questions (as long as i put my own answers).

1. What is the color of your toothbrush? gray and white
2. Name one person who made you smile today. elizabeth
3. What were you doing at 8 am this morning? checking my fantasy football scores
4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago? sending out bid solicitations to subs
5. What is your favorite candy bar? either caramelo or miklyway, or any other candy with caramel in it
6. Have you ever been to a strip club? yes, but i was never the instigator
7. What is the last thing you said aloud? "the 4th?"
8. What is your favorite ice cream? vanilla, or cookies & cream, or chocolate chip cookie dough, or mint chocolate chip, or pralenes & cream, or some other one
9. What was the last thing you had to drink? water at my desk, coke at lunch
10. Do you like your wallet? i guess, it is nothing special
11. What was the last thing you ate? jack in the box (it sounded better than it was)
12. Have you bought any new clothing items this week? no (or this month, or maybe even this year)
13. The last sporting event you watched? in person, a grizzlies game. on tv, football yesterday
14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn? salty & buttery
15. Who is the last person you sent a text message to?: ed
16. Ever go camping? yeah, i like camping
17. Do you take vitamins daily? no, but i have them on my counter
18. Do you go to church every Sunday? no
19. Do you have a tan? up to my shirt sleeves
20. Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza? no, but i do like chinese
21. Do you drink your soda with a straw? no
22. What did your last text message say? the last one i sent said "no monday haiku today?" the last one i recieved said "on our way."
23. What are you doing tomorrow? working
24. Favorite color? blue i guess
25. Look to your left; what do see? piles of paperwork, and a window to the foyer.
26. What color is your watch? my cell phone is blue
27. What do you think of when you hear “Australia”? the outback
28. Would you strip for money? probably not
29. Do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? drive-thru
30. What is your favorite number? 5
31. Who’s the last person you talked to on the phone? one of the guys that works in our office
32. Any plans today? monday night football and laundry
33. In how many states have you lived? 2, california and colorado
34. Biggest annoyance right now? car maintenance
35. Last song listened to? something by coldplay i think
36. Can you say the alphabet backwards? i think so, but probably a few letters at a time
37. Do you have a maid service clean your house? that's funny
38. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time? white tennies
39. Are you jealous of anyone? yeah, a little bit
40. Is anyone jealous of you? who knows
41. Do you love anyone? yes
42. Do any of your friends have children? yes, some
43. What do you usually do during the day? work, and think
44. Do you hate anyone that you know right now? nope
45. Do you use the word hello daily? it's possible
46. What color is your car? grey/silver
47. What size wedding ring do you wear? no wedding ring
48. Are you thinking about someone right now? as a matter of fact, i am
49. Have you ever been to Six Flags? yes, quite a few times (though i don't like it as much now)
50. How did you get your worst scar? by being stupid and thinking that nothing bad could happen to me

friday weather

i have enjoyed that it has been overcast with fog/mist/precipitation in fresno today.

coming back from lunch i was listening to the dodger pre-game show, and they said it is 93 degrees in l.a. right now. so i checked weather.com when i got back to the office and see that it is 70 degrees in fresno right now. but it does feel a little warmer than 70 because of the high humidity. but i'm not complaining, october should be 70 (or 60, or 50), not 93.

A New To Do List

After careful consideration (and much looking around), I have created a new to-do list. And what's more, I'm going to complete it. I'm two days in, and items are already being marked off the list. My goal is for the list to be completed by Saturday.

Granted, the list is only three items long (not really).

legs of stone

concerning my fantasy football team losing last night to ed, i have to say that aaron rodgers lost me the game as much as ed's defense won him the game. rodgers looked both lost and oblivious in the pocket last night. i know his weak offensive line didn't help any, but there were many times that he could have thrown the ball away or ran out of the pocket instead of standing there waiting for jared allen to come say hi. if they weren't playing on artificial turf, i would have swore that rodgers had grown out of the field and that's why he was 'rooted' to one spot. oh well, next week brings the chance for someone else on my team to surprise or upset me.

weekend recap

this past weekend was pretty mellow. to be honest, i don't even remember what i did friday night...but i'm sure it wasn't anything extraordinary. saturday one of my friends came up from tulare, so we hung out and got caught up on each others lives before joining ed, brian, and the woody's for drinks. sunday i went to ed's to be enveloped in his nfl sunday ticket package thru direct tv. then i went home and watched the chargers alllllllmost pull off an awsome comeback against the steelers.
in other weekend news, i didn't do laundry like i should have. and i didn't go grocery shopping like i needed to.

it's not that cold, is it?

last night i used a blanket for the first time since last winter. it was nice. i sleep with the windows open and a fan on in my room, so with the last 2 days of cool weather it's actually gotten cold at night. i like the cool/cold weather. so bring it on fall and winter. bring. it. on.

commercials

carrie has recently posted on some commercials that she currently can't stand. since 1/2 to 3/4 of commercials fall into that category for me, i thought i'd bring up one that currently makes me laugh. this might change depending on how many times i see it.

it's a head and shoulders commercial with troy polamalu. troy comes off of the field, and he has all this hair, and a reporter asks him a question about the game. he glances at troys hair once or twice as he asks it. so troy starts talking about his hair. the reporter might ask him one more question, with troy again talking about his hair. so then the reporter says to him, "i didn't ask you about your hair." to which troy says, "you aksed with your eyes, trent. you asked with your eyes." then he runs off screen.

it may not be very funny to anybody else, but it makes me laugh when i see it.

weddings

a couple of weeks ago i went to my cousins wedding. it was nice. she looked great. it was in the bay area. yada yada.
this last weekend my sister got married down in visalia, and it all went great. she looked great. my parents looked great. i looked great. that's right, i looked great (this was according to my grandma though, so i don't know how biased it was). the ceremony and reception were outside, so it was a little warm until the sun went down. they had an open bar, so the dance floor stayed full. my dad danced some, which made me laugh. and i got to talk to a lot of friends and family during the evening, which was nice.
i was impressed with all of the major vendors they used: the photographer/videographer, the emcee/dj, the bartenders, the cook/caterer. they all did great jobs, and they helped the whole night go well. i was the only person there drinking 7&7's, so i didn't have to worry about them running out. there were only a few people who drank a little too much, and thankfully they didn't make any scenes, and left quietly. the family of the groom were quite the dancers. i'm not saying that they were good dancers, but they sure got out there and danced. and they smoked...while they danced. it was funny watching them bob/twist/gyrate with a cigarette hanging out of their mouth, or a cloud of smoke above their heads. and one of them who was dancing quite a bit and having a really good time split his white pants (that's right, white pants), but i don't remember if that stopped him from dancing.
i might have left out one or two highlights (not on purpose), but in summary the wedding went really well. my sister was happy with how everything turned out. and my parents were happy with how everything turned out.

truck horn

so one of the guys at work was leaving for lunch, and he asked if we wanted to hear his train horn. being a little confused, i said yes. so we walk outside and he gets in his truck and hits the horn. and it is a genuine train horn. he bought it from amtrak for $400, when it normally sells for $1,000. but it was crazy; an actual train horn on his truck. all i could think about was the damage he could cause in traffic (or on the road in general) if someone made him mad and he used it.