hello future

for the time being (and maybe forseeable future) i announce that i concede to the fairer sex. you know something i don't, and whatever it is you know is keeping the two of us apart. so i will begin a time of searching, reflection, introspection, reevaluation, and change. what will i do, how long will it take, and will it work? those are the first three questions that immediately come to mind.

what the heck, tuesday, why you treat me like this?

i have a headache. behind my left eye. is that a migrane, or just a headache behind my left eye? can you get a migrane once or twice? whatever. i took something for it, so hopefully it goes away soon.

and then there's my heart. that bastard of emotion. it's acting up again.

so eff you, tuesday. hurry up and give way to wednesday!

here you go

lately i've been into giving gifts, and i'm not sure why. whether it's presents, knick-knacks, cards, food or drinks, etc. i'm already buying birthday and christmas presents for people, and am searching for things that are a good fit to peoples personalities/wants.
so i'm trying to figure out the reason(s) behind this. so far all that i have is that i haven't been good at expressing verbally my appreciation of people (friends, family, co-workers, ...), or my feelings for them, so i'm trying to do it through gifts. this may not be accurate, true, or successful, but so far it's the only reason i have for my new found desire to buy things for people.
all i know for sure is that it's not because of my surplus of funds.

what to talk about

many of my friends have commented on the 'darkness' of some of my blog posts. and that's how i feel now. but i guess i'll keep it all inside.

rainbows, butterflys, unicorns, spring days, skipping, laughing, bright colors, and other happy things.

work work work

thankfully it doesn't happen too often, but it looks like i am working late tonight. not too late, but it will be 7pm most likely. i just hope that it will mean tomorrow will go smoothly. go team!

weekend recap

friday night was 'green eggs & the met', which showed off a lot of dr. seuss' works, and had 3-4 bands playing. i loved it, thought it went well, and look forward to the next event they have.
saturday night was a halloween costume party at brians. it turned out well, with lots of people dressing up. i think i ended up being most happy with my drinking mug and all the attention 'senior skull' got (although i did bring him up quite a bit).
and sunday was a lot of laying around watching football and baseball.
now back to work.

wtf

one minute, i have the world figured out. the next, i'm left scratching my head. going from low to high to low takes a lot out of a person. i long for simplicity...and peace...and normalcy. maybe i'm almost there. but right now, at this minute, it feels like a long way away.